Just for you mom

On this mothers day, itzz a different feeling.. Unlike the other years I m not there with mom physically but she still is pretty much the backbone of my life and also the oxygen of everything I do.
being a mom is not the easiest thing in the world and that also to two teenage girls. Its definitely a challenge but the ease with which my mom handled it is just amazing and that happened because she never behaved like a typical worried mom, she has been our silliest friend and the best confidant. Most of the times she jokes and asks us about  our new crushes. She might be worried for us but it never comes on her face. the way she sacrificed her little pleasures for us is something only she could have done. When we lived together before i came to Delhi, most of the times i took mom for granted which we all do at times. But being away from her has taught me to how special and important mom is. Sometimes itz like I just say hello and she asks me "What happened, are you not well." I am amazed at her instinct. I am so thankful to have a mother like her. Thank u ma thanks for everything you have done for us. I would be the best person on earth if I could become half as good as you are. So patient, kind, satisfied, good natured and god fearing. Itz truly ablessing to have you mom . thanks

Last two days...

Yesterday was a pretty exciting day, if described in literary terms.  It comprised of Work, more Work, conversations with uncle, dinner at Bercos, conversations again.
A pretty ok day but there was something sad about yesterday which I am trying to figure out. Work was fun, Dinner was good, may be the conversations were diluted with melancholy.
My conversations with uncle consisted of mostly family talks and the my desperation to be with them again.Its been more than a month since I saw them. The last time I met them was only for half a day. Delhi is great, it is but there's a vacuum in me, I miss something.Sometimes food and more importantly care. Nobody here bothers to stand and question my well being even if they do its just "oh hi hw ru,, u ok na." which is as good as not asking me. There are a thousand other things which I dislike about the city and its hostility but there's just one thing which keeps me here- My work, which I didn't get easily at all. But even then I am happy and grateful to the almighty for a wonderful family and friends. May be I am thanking them today because I am far from them. Thank you!!!!!!!!!!

Daddy's Day

Today is my daddy's birthday. Daddy, my late grandfather who left me in 2004, its roughly been 8 years without him. Life's has been one big struggle since then. Daddy was wheatish,tall, had a broad nose and a smile on his face always. In winters he could be spotted sporting a tie and a three piece blazer, agile and amicable. He was 60.He was born after Shivratri hence named Bhola Nath. This is the first time I am uttering his name since eight years. Its not that I haven't remembered him.Whenever I am sad, his memories pamper me. these memories go back to my childhood which were full of scooter rides, ice creams, school trips, doctor visits with Daddy. you could easily call me his PA. I used to do his paper work of the court dates, put his eye drops at night, stand on his feet to ease out his pain. In return he gave me some rupees and a few shellings everynight. Life's was so fullfilling. After he left, i suddenly felt orphaned and jobless too. Now it was only a juggle between school and tutions. I missed a bit of him everyday. In all these years without him my family and me have grown and learnt. but none of us miss him now probably our wounds have healed, we have learnt to live without him. But on his birthday i would thank him and almighty for blessing us with a person as beautiful as him. Thanks, RIP daddy...